my name is abbi rose and im from sydney.

not long ago i believed that having money and being perfect were the only things that mattered.

i find that todays society is so topsy turvey, we cant go through one day without making a comparison to someone else, i want her body, i want her hair, why cant i be her?

and my new goal is to cut all of that out from my life. im so sick of being un-happy. i havnt felt happiness, true over whelming happiness in 2 years and i miss that.

i know it will take a while to achieve this, because like most girls, i really do only see the flaws in myself.

im so sick of fighting with my emotions. i want to be in control, i hate feeling weak, but i feel it all the time. i miss being happy, sometimes i cant even remember what it feels like. im jealous of the people that have it so easily. im angry at those who get all they could ever want but dont see how lucky they are, and still want more. im sad. always sad. and im desperate to be heard, i just want someone to tell me it will be alright, that i’ll be fine, that they know what im going through, but i know that wont happen.

i want peace in my life, and cleanliness. i want to move to somewhere tropical and become fluent in another langauge. i want to discover a place unseen to anyone ever before. but above all i just want to be happy. and i want the people around me to be happy too. i want every girl who has ever doubted themselves to know that they are so beautiful. that those scars on your wrists do not show any signs of weakness. things may seem bad now but i promise they get better. you are beautiful. you are strong. you can do this.